Personal Discovery: Who Am I? Part 1

Everything in this world is made up of different atoms. They are the building blocks of our universe. Every atom is made up of three basic atomic elements: protons, neutrons, and electrons. These atomic particles are made up of six different quarks: up, down, charm, strange, top, and bottom. According to quantum string theory, every quark is in fact just a tiny 1-dimensional string vibrating at different rates. It is these different rates that create the incredible diversity in this universe. In the same way, we are all human but what makes us different from each other is not only just the minor variations in our genes, but our underlying personality, our thoughts, our me-ness that vibrates differently from everyone else.

One of the most important steps in the process of understanding yourself is to actually start getting in the habit of conversing with yourself. I’m not talking about walking around muttering inane things like some crazy person. I’m talking about discovering your own stream of consciousness and in the process, begin to understand how your own mind works, how it processes thoughts, and what patterns of thoughts you have. This becomes a way to evaluate what is happening in the rest of our lives.

The biggest source of information that tells us about ourselves comes from ourselves. However, many of us have gotten out of the habit of listening to ourselves. Our bodies are made to give us warning signs and signals. If there is danger, we feel fear or pain. If we need food, we become hungry. We merely have to listen to the natural impulses of our bodies to maintain the optimum balance we need. As we grow older, we have often learned to ignore, twist, or misattribute these natural impulses. We override them with what we think they should be or what we or the world wants them to be. In doing so, our habits have fallen out of sync with what our body needs to maintain the optimum balance. Instead of listening to the true needs of our bodies, we follow self-imposed habits, habits that become so fully incorporated into ourselves that we begin to believe that they were how it was all along.

We have similarly changed our relationship with our minds, hearts, and personalities. We have fallen out of sync with the person we naturally are. But how do we get it back? We need to figure out who we are currently, who we are naturally, and who we truly want to be. We do this by slowly learning to listen to ourselves again and to respond in a natural give-and-take conversation. This can be difficult to do when we’re out of practice. We may need to be jumpstarted first but, eventually, it should happen naturally.